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28 May

Last Thursday, I was asked to be the keynote at UCSD’s Cross Cultural Center’s  “All People’s Celebration”. Honored and scared, I had accepted the offer. What would I write? What do I have to say to folks that could possibly inspire them?  I was prompted according to the theme, “Honoring our Joy” and also asked to discuss what this means in the context of being an artist. Although I contemplate life and synchronisity often, I found it difficult to write/verbalize my understanding of living life in/with joy . As I took to the task with shaking nerves, all I knew was that what I had to say could only come from the heart and be nothing less than honest.

To me, Joy is born into our lives when we live each day in the moment. Joy is the excitement we feel when we allow ourselves to be spontaneous . It is having the courage to let go of fear and let our hearts be free to experience love, pain, melancholy, excitement… Happiness is wonderful, but it is a temporary emotion. JOY IS AN ATTITUDE OF THE HEART and can be found within the emotions we experience daily, including those which we associate with more negative/painful undertones.

As a community artist, I have found joy 1) in actualizing my dream/desire to create  & 2) by sharing my work with the community.

By actualizing the desire within my heart to create, I feel I am no longer denying my trueself. Whereas, in the past, I would be the first to negate my own creatvity, I now am the first to honor this part of me. Words cannot express the fufilment my soul has felt since I let myself be “an artist” by name and practice.

Although  I find the act of creating to be powerful and cathartic, i draw most of my energy from the connection I am able to make with my community when they engage in my pieces and myself. When I create a piece, I create to convey emotions that are inside me at that particular moment. When an outside party tells me they are drawn to one of my pieces it is as though we are connecting on more than just a human level- we are connecting on a soul energetic level.  Since every piece I create reflects a certain energy that my heart has felt/does feel, when others are drawn to the energy I am visually representing I am moved beyond words. My art connects me to friends and even strangers. IT IS IN THESE MOMENTS I FEEL MOST ALIVE.

As my sister-friend and poetess, the late Joy de la Cruz, said in one of her pieces-

wondering

wandering

i get lost

and find myself….

B-E-A-T

be-at, the beat

be-at, the beat

be-at, the beat

*Thank you, sister-friend for reminding me that everyday is a gift and that everday I must live within the B-E-A-T of the breath of my heart to truly get to the root of my existence, my being. I miss and love you.*

sister fierce speaks

20 Apr

A short writing to go with the Sister Fierce art piece. 🙂

 

Sister Fierce

4.19.09

 

 

I am the one who’s burnt orange eyes pierce

Strongly into yours

Boldly I stand before you

Loving myself and all my imperfections

Stronger than ever before

I recognize the fierceness within me

And I wear my rebirthed persona proudly

 

No longer a prisoner to my own misguided power

I fly free above the purple tinted nightscape

Streams of gold dusted dreams flutter

Around me and I smile as the moon

Reflects a new dawn within my eyes

No longer will I hide

The sacred beauty that

I am

no day but today

25 Mar

So, I have no idea why this song is stuck in my head. Pretty much BEP’s “Boom, Boom, Pow” & Jamie Fox’s “Blame it on the Alcohol” are the club bangers which have been rockin my brain over the past few days. But, when I decided to sit down and FINALLY write another entry in this thing, this song from the ever so popular ( or not popular, depeding on your taste), RENT suddently found its way into the air waves of my brain. So, for all you RENT lovers, I have posted a link to the movie version and also posted the lyrics below. Enjoy!

The heart may freeze or it can burn
The pain will ease if I can learn

There is no future
There is no past
Thank God this moment’s not the last

There’s only us
There’s only this
Forget regret– or life is yours to miss.
No other road
No other way
No day but today

There’s only yes
Only tonight
We must let go
To know what is alright
No other course
No other way
No day but today

I can’t control
My destiny
I trust my soul
My only hope
is just to be

There’s only now
There’s only here
Give in to love
Or live in fear
No other path
No other way
No day but today

Oh, and a few more thoughts…
Maybe this song randomly popped in my mind cuz I needed it.I mean, who doesn’t need to be reminded every
now and then that we gotta live in the moment and that we gotta live for today?
Gosh, who knew RENT could be so profound? “Give in to love or live in fear,” now that is deep and real.
I think we all gotta try to do this cuz unconditional love, when practiced correctly can
can ulimately change this world. And when I say, practicing unconditinal love correctly,
I am not talkin about the way Hi-5 says to practice “Unconditional Love” in their late 90s
R & B jam. I am talkin about
an unconditional love that is not sexist, not racist, not classist, that isn’t afraid of gay marriage,
that sees beyond ego, that is in tune with the unviversal connection with us all.

Anyways…no , day but today, right?

checking in

11 Mar

So friends, it has been awhile since I have written. Like I said, March is the month of maddness and I am doing my best to keep sane. If you all wonder what I do besides try to stay motivated and find that creative place within (which sounds easy, but is actually difficult), let me shed a little light for you into my life.

Right now, I serve as the Trafficking Programs Coordinator for GABRIELA Network, Los Angeles (www.gabnet.org). I love GAB. Never could I have asked to work with a more talented and passionate group of women. For those of you who don’t know, GAB exists to empower women by engaging in various campaigns. One of these is the Purple Rose Campaign, which deals which the issue of human trafficking. I pretty much help to make sure that the grants we have get seen though. Part of my job is also to manage interns who help to complete grant projects.

 I LOVE THE GAB INTERNS. Welcome Jo Ann Paanio & Mutya Briones! These women are passionate and eager. Together we started blogs to document our GAB process. If you wanna find out more, go to www.purplerosereflections.wordpress.com. This is my blog regarding working on human trafficking issues. To find the intern blogs, just look to the right and find the link.

Hmmm, I also spend my part of my time helping to coordinate art shows at THE DEUCE (www.runthedeuce.com). The NEXT art show is on MARCH 20 ( & yes, that is next friday!). For all of you who wanna check out some dope community artists come through. The event starts at 7pm. Click in the link for the address. The flyer will be out in a day or two.

So, that is part of what occupies my day. But to keep sane, I just take deep breaths and know that all this maddness is only temporary. And actually, I am glad to live in this whirlwind right now. I feel alive and I couldn’t ask for more.

inner reflection

11 Feb

Just thought I would get a little personal with you all, you know, be a bit vulnerable. This is an excepert from my private writing collection….

Mirror

our souls speak song
& i sing in tears
the music radiating essential instrumentation
of a soul-estial essence
in discovery

a warm rain
from swollen eyes falls

puddles of confusion form
revealing a complicated self-reflection

how lovely it is to be me

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